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the way to seek a child本let me first introduce my history of sexual misconduct in a concentrated way. the sexual karma i have committed is: twenty years of sexual misconduct, ten years of masturbation, eight years of prostitution, and other sexual misconduct in seven or eight years (such as asking the lady who knocks on the back to help me masturbate when i knock on the back). what a heinous crime!本what are the consequences i get? all kinds of diseases: heart disease, dynamic electrocardiogram shows that blood vessels are blocked by 2 degrees, etc. i can't say it specifically. i'm so bored every day, and it's even more uncomfortable in summer. the doctor said that if this continues, a pacemaker will be installed in the future. prostatitis, the testicles are often swollen and painful, and the urine is frequent and the urine is less frequent and the drain is dripping. severe kidney deficiency, waist feels sore every day, limbs are weak, and you feel tired after doing something. rhinitis, the nose is often stuffed and uncomfortable. the doctor said it is chronic rhinitis and there is no medicine to cure it. these are all diseases that have been infected in the past decade. i also have dizziness, forgetfulness, and insomnia all day long. i can't sleep at all after less than twelve:30 every day, and my face is pale and bloodless. if you encounter many problems, you will have bad luck and your work will not be satisfactory. working in a public institution, the staffing has not been resolved yet, so i can only work as a temporary worker. i took the civil service exam three times, and each time it was a slight difference. love is not satisfactory, and i haven't found a girlfriend yet. i am still alone, and i am not bad in terms of appearance. i graduated from university in 2000, and i thought about it, i was doing so miserably. i didn’t understand why this was the case before, but now i know that this is the heavy consequence of evil lust!
本this is what i want to say, i feel both unfortunate and lucky, unfortunately the walking dead has been like a ghost in the past ten years. fortunately, i was not too late to meet the website of avoiding essence, and i was able to hear the dharma because of the fate of avoiding essence. cause and effect are true! the causes of adultery planted over the decades have been harvested with painful consequences. today i finally realized it. my condition has improved greatly compared to half a year ago: my body feels more and more comfortable every day, my insomnia gradually decreases, my complexion is getting more and more elegant, i haven't had rhinitis in the past six months, and i feel that my waist will be able to fully recover in a few months. i am getting more and more energetic and have great concentration in doing things. unlike before, i can't sit down and am restless.8community | 本site map2040954community | 本i use my life trajectory to prove that what yuan liaofan said is true and true1814084good book | unfortunately, i don’t repent and can’t control myself, and i’m repeatedly doing it. i am really worried about whether i have aids. i will go and check it in a few days, although the results of the previous few tests were negative. this is my depravity:713community | sleeping prostitution, the temporary pleasure is exchanged for great physical and mental pain year after year, and there is no hope or future.509good book | perhaps it was because my ancestors had accumulated some virtue, and i gradually realized that i could not continue like this. confucius said that i was at thirty, but i still had nothing at the age of thirty. my work was not satisfactory, my love was not enough, and i didn’t have to think about the house. i was plagued by all kinds of diseases and my body was hollowed out. if this continues, i will probably not be able to live even at the age of 60. think of my dignified seven-foot man who was so cowardly for a lifetime, and then died silently in poverty? some people are not smarter than you, but live a happy life, have a smooth career and a happy family. whenever i think of this, i can't help but burst into tears, regretting that i was too unsuccessful.846community | after washing up every morning, spend about ten minutes chanting the name of "amitabha" with ten breaths, and then repent and remind yourself of the heavy consequences caused by twenty years of fantasy, ten years of masturbation, eight years of prostitution, and seven or eight years of other evil acts.638good book |
every night i have to reflect on myself. after washing up, i first respectfully report to the three saints of the west, then recite the buddha's name for five or six minutes, then reflect on whether i have committed adultery, and then make a vow in front of buddhas and bodhisattvas to avoid adultery forever. i also got a merit and demerit myself (of course, it is not just about abstaining from sexual misconduct). i beat myself up without committing sexual misconduct every day, which will help encourage myself. i think this kind of reminder and reflection is very effective. zeng ziyun examines me three times a day. christians also have prayer rituals every day. it would be a pity for us believers to put the great compassion and divine power of buddha without using it. buddhist scriptures such as "the universal door chapter of guanyin bodhisattva" all mention that reciting the buddha's name and the holy name of guanyin bodhisattva can get rid of lust. why don't we follow the teachings?preparation no. 17004360-8